sometimes I am just overwhelmed with the amount of work that comes with this life, I even contemplate a change in plans. and then there are those moments that scream at me and tell me this is you, and this is the rest of your life. and when these moments are spectacular I know every moment of it is worth it.

it's.

the late night jazz music

the strange connection between you and other humans just with sound

the ones who have already been where you are going

the ones who demand your respect without even uttering a word

the knowledge

the understanding

the expression

the laughter

the early mornings

the songs in stairwells

Everything

sometimes I just need to breathe different air.

I miss them, but I like where I'm standing.

I wrote you letters, many letters. I sent those letters, all those letters.

I see a lot of you in these books 

A letter to someone close by

Dear ____,

Once I did not know you at all, and then we became familiar faces. You were always quiet and reserved which I admired. I wanted you to know that everything you thought I felt, was true. I'm sorry I brought him around but I know you got me back, with her.  You were one to make me smile and wish me luck. I think you really saw me, and I really saw you. Even with all the trivial facts we still don't know about each other, somehow we both got down to the core of things. I am sorry It won't continue on next year, but I'll still be the one to wish you happy birthday. I needed you for every moment we had. There was just something so unspoken about the whole thing. Like neither one of us had to say anything but both knew exactly what was going on. It's fitting how it all ended, and you even said so. I looked for you everywhere to say goodbye and as I was leaving by complete chance you were right around the corner. It ended with just the two of us, in the afternoon light. Sitting alone on that old worn carpet, writing our last goodbyes. I'm glad it was you next to me for four years, I don't think it would have been the same with anyone else. But part of me thinks we both needed more of eachother.

         With all the love in my heart, good luck,

A

Oh I've found a warm sunny place to rest my soul.